I did not expect life to be so mundane. The world is getting worse everyday, and her divisions are getting more out of hand than ever. Yet, here I am secretly hidden away from the world. Was I always this way? Am I fortunate? I see my peers ignoring the cautions that the state imposes and getting sick over stupidities. Yet all I can seem to do is wallow in my frozen state of mind, as if life is not going anywhere. This is my first summer where I felt time elapse and I did nothing.

This is a problem.

I wonder if this is a sign of not knowing what to do, or a sign of greed. She goes fast. And I don't want anything from her. Need nor want.

All I want to do is encircle myself in my hedonistic pleasures, and ignore the pain and the pressure of having to think about anything.

All that seemed to happened is that this summer moved slow/swift.

1000 years has gone by.